II recently spent an afternoon going over my past writings. I have copies of every piece I´ve written – even those that never saw the light of day. As I searched through the treasure trough on my laptop, I came across the folder marked “THE GREAT PURGE”.
I wrote the articles in the folder marked “THE GREAT PURGE” between 2013 and 2016 during a time when I was purging painful emotions from the past. You´ve got to feel it to heal it so purging is a very good thing. I´m very lucky to be able to purge through my writing. I highly recommend it.
With hindsight, the whole world seemed to be purging and still is. During this period, my Facebook newsfeed was filled with women (and quite a few men) purging their thoughts and emotions on such a deep level. Speaking their truth without fearing the consequences and I was one of them. It was a very heavy yet liberating time, my friends.
Moving on from this period, the mainstream began to purge. The MeToo Movement swept the world as women spoke their truth about the very ugly world of showbusiness. Suddenly, it wasn´t just okay to purge – it´s become the norm and the saddest thing about it is – nearly everyone has experienced a MeToo moment in their life.
But it was a good thing to happen. If we are all honest, we all knew what was going on in Hollywood – we´d just become conditioned to ignore it. Our society is very good at brushing things under the carpet.
The Great Purge of the MeToo Movement has brought everything out into the open for us all to heal and we do this by feeling it.
The need to emotionally purge is the same as to physically purge something out of your system that is poisoning you and the sexual abuse that was ripe in society for so many years needed to be brought to light because it was poisoning us. The feeling is the healing and we, as a collective are healing. Yet healing is not pretty. It’s painful. It’s angry. It is often filled with hatred. It can send some people spiralling out of control. But it has to be done.
In my own journey, I did hit the point when the need to purge was finally over. It didn´t happen on a specific day but over a period of time in 2016 that coincided with my first Camino de Santiago. The bitterness of the past had finally left me and I was ready to move on.
Having spent quite a few years delving into my own shadow cave of dark and deep crevices, the period of exploring my shadow side in such depth was finally over. After dancing with the devil that was my demons, I finally shook hands with him, made my peace and moved on.
Not to forget about the darkness of my emotional wounding but to transcend it, To come back out into the light and create a new world. I am so much happier for it.
While any person still needing to purge should continue, there does come a point when women, as a collective, have to come back out into the light and transcend the abuse we have suffered, the pain we have endured, the humiliation and shame we have been made to feel for being women that are etched into our female psyche. We have to let go and forgive – not for our abusers but for ourselves and humanity. We need to create a new world.
So, I wait for the day when the great purge is finally over. When we all get to come back out into the light to create a new world. I feel it is on the horizon. I´m ready for it, my friends. A whole new world is waiting for us if we can evolve and transcend away from the time of the Great Purge.
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